THE COMPARISON GAME
I’m a dreamer. Not just in the “wide awake, think about the future” sense but also in the “fast asleep, in the middle of the night” kind of way. I dream EVERY.SINGLE.NIGHT.
They’re all very realistic. Some days they’re good and some days they’re bad, and when they’re bad, they’re very bad. It can ruin my whole day if I let it- even though it’s literally something that never happened.
One such dream came about last week and I woke up irritated and down on myself. I allowed it to ruin my day. I was in a funk and couldn’t snap out of it. My mind kept telling me “I wasn’t good enough” and asking “why in the world did God ever call me to be a pastor’s wife?” God’s answer was so clear, but I wasn’t listening and I wasn’t listening because I was too busy comparing. Comparing myself to all the outgoing, talkative, socially energetic women who would do a much better job than I do. Comparing myself to all the pastor’s wives on social media who have amazing testimonies and wonderfully articulate, beautiful, eye pleasing, heart convicting blogs. And then there was me. An introvert, married to an extrovert pastor, living in a small town~ with lofty thoughts that maybe, just maybe, I could write about it. And that’s exactly where satan wanted me~and you know what Ladies? I allow him to win~time after time after time. I am NOT looking for affirmation here. I was wrong. Plain and simple.
I have a comparison problem and it’s called sin.
After much internal struggle on my part, God’s answer to my question that day? Here’s what He told my heart~I called YOU to marry Mike, I called YOU to be a mama to your four beautiful children. I called YOU to Caseville to minister along side your sweet family. And then I asked YOU to write about it. Stop comparing and start trusting ME.
“My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.” Isaiah 55:8
Comparison can certainly suck the life out of you, and the world we live in can make it so easy to play the comparison game, and lose every time.
But they, measuring themselves by themselves and comparing themselves among themselves, are not wise. (2 Cor. 10:12)
Have you ever been there Ladies? Let’s stop looking at our reflection through the eyes of society, television, our phones or tablets. Let’s look for our reflection in God’s word and let it shine from our hearts. We are fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalm 139:14) Read Gods word. Talk to Him continually. Trust Him without reservation and daily remind yourself that the ONLY ONE we should compare ourselves to is Christ. He isn’t just a dream, He is our reality. EVERY.SINGLE.DAY.
I will be satisfied when I awake with HIS likeness. (Psalm 17:15)