Something As Silly As Makeup
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The store was empty.
A strange change from its normal busyness.
Mike took the three older kids in his cart while I went with tiny Kathryn to pick up her baby necessities.
My heart was heavy.
I admit, I was feeling sorry for myself.
The last few months had been a struggle. Kathryn had suffered from allergies that resulted in fevers, sleepless nights, doctor visits, bills and tears. Lots of tears. Tears from sweet, baby Kathryn and tears from her mama.
And so, here I was about to spend half (yes HALF) of our grocery budget on formula for her. The only formula her little tummy could handle. Mike and I and our three older children would somehow live on the other half of the budget.
Money was very, very tight.
As I wondered the lonely aisle looking for her formula, I began talking to God.
You see~of all the silly, shallow things to talk to Him about~I was asking Him about makeup. I had run out and we had no money left to even purchase one of the items I needed.
As you know from previous posts, I’m just a makeup person. Always have been. Partly because I was raised that way, and partly because I would scare you if I wasn’t.(*note top pic) I never leave the house without makeup. I know that sounds vain, but it’s always been an insecurity of mine.
And so, I asked God what to do.
I put the bottle of bleach for her cloth diapers into the cart with her formula, then turned the corner.
And there in the middle of the next aisle over lay a 20 dollar bill. It was crisp and new. There wasn’t a person in sight anywhere. I picked it up. I looked around. I went aisle to aisle. No one. I asked the service desk if anyone had reported losing money. The answer was no. They told me it was mine.
And I cried.
I don’t know why God loves me so much. I certainly didn’t feel I deserved it, in fact I know I didn’t.
Perhaps because that’s what God is.
He is LOVE, and despite my selfish, shallow, heartfelt cries~ He answered.
He sent a crisp 20 dollar bill.
In that moment I realized it wasn’t the money that made me cry. It wasn’t the happy thought that I could go out and buy that much needed makeup. It was that He was there all along. He knew, and He showed me how very, very much He loves me. Even through something as silly as makeup.
Remember when you were little, all the unimportant things you would ask your daddy for? It never felt silly to ask~ because he was daddy.
I can’t even tell you how many times my heavenly Daddy has shown up in the little, unimportant things that clearly don’t matter in light of eternity.
But when He shows up~
He tells me that I MATTER~
and He shows me how incredible His love is.
That’s my God.
Look for Him in the little things.
They aren’t coincidences.
They are all God.
They’re His way of saying~”I see you, I know your struggles and I’m here for you.”
The little things are actually big things.
They’re like getting a hug from your daddy.
Don’t ever feel silly asking Him for something that seems unimportant and small.
Because you are not small to God.
If it’s important to you,
it’s important to Him.
Even if it’s as silly as makeup.