ARE YOU LOOKING IN A MIRROR?
For a minute I saw it.
My heart remembered and my soul said~ there you are.
And I fell in love all over again.
His dark hair now shimmers white.
His thin shape has filled in.
But his twinkle,
that twinkle in his eye~
It remains the same, even after 34 years.
And when he laughs,
really laughs from deep down inside~
my heart smiles.
We have been through heartache together.
We have weathered the storms of our own making, and come out on the other side.
There has been hurt.
There have been times that I have hidden away and cried.
Times my heart lies and tells me~
this isn’t the same man you married.
And I want that man back.
Not this one.
Eventually, we become like the ones we spend the most time with.
That’s a lot of time.
Time he has spent with me.
So I remind myself, on the days I don’t like what I see in him, perhaps I am looking in a mirror and seeing a reflection of myself~
And I determine that I will work even harder on this marriage thing~
no matter how many years go by~
so that when he looks back at me,
he will see Christ.
I want him to feel my heart full of forgiveness, selflessness, compassion and mercy. A heart full of indescribable love.
The heart of a wife that spends more time with Christ than her own selfish nature.
I will learn to let things go.
I will put his needs before my own.
I will love like Christ loves me.
And I will see that twinkle that makes my heart smile because I know that when I see that twinkle~
his heart is smiling too.
“The Lord is gracious, and full of compassion; slow to anger, and of great mercy. The Lord is good to all: and his tender mercies are over all his works.”
“But thou, O Lord, art a God full of compassion, and gracious, longsuffering, and plenteous in mercy and truth.”
“Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any: even as Christ forgave you, so also do ye.”