Are You There God?
ARE YOU THERE GOD?
In the late 1970’s, all the girls my age were reading the same book~
‘Are You There God? It’s Me Margaret’.
I was in junior high.
I was boy~crazy, wore knee hi’s and couldn’t wait to grow up.
Are you there God?
Such silly things to talk to God about~ Boys and womanhood.
Are you there God? I’m graduating high school and leaving for college.
Scared and excited.
Are you there God? The man of my dreams is asking to marry me.
Are you there God? I’m moving hundreds of miles away. Away from everything and everyone I know and love.
Are you there God? This little one is calling me mom. Do I even have a clue how to do this ‘baby’ thing?
This ‘teenage’ thing?
This ‘saying goodbye as they leave for good’ thing?
Are you there God? Devastation has hit our country. The Twin Towers.
Thousands are killed.
Are you there God? I don’t think I can recover from the deep hurt this person caused.
Are you there God? My sister in law died leaving six children. Her youngest only 6 days old.
Are you there God? My mom is gone.
The same year.
I can’t breathe.
Will I ever laugh again?
Are you there God? Sickness, Celiac, mammograms, biopsies, abnormal cells.
Are you there God? My dad has had a heart attack and stroke.
Are you there God? My husband can’t see. He’s losing his sight....
Yes God is here.
I could not have made it through without Him.
He held me and carried me through each one of these moments in my life.
He is here even now as I laugh with my dad.
He’s here as I cherish memories of my mom and sister.
He’s here as I gaze lovingly at my children, their spouses, their children.
He’s here in the twinkle of my grandchildren’s eyes and the giggles of their hearts.
He’s here in the whispers of my husband’s I love you’s.
Even as He was there when I was boy~crazy and wanted to grow up too fast.
It wasn’t silly to Him when I asked. Nothing is too silly, nothing is too hard and nothing is too sad, because He loves me. He knows everything about me. He understands.
Just as He understands whatever it is you are facing at this moment.
And He loves you.
Are you there God?
You are not alone. Ask Him today.
He will answer your heart~
I am always here my child. Always.
I will hold you. I will carry you through.
All you need do is ask.
Psalm 62:8, 139:17
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