My granddaughter Clara is a ball of energy. She always has been. Non. Stop. Crazy. Clara. Her big sister Ellie was always so quiet and good when she was Clara's age. A little princess, who for the most part did whatever grandma asked. Then Clara was born. She's a whirlwind and if she's not supposed to get into something, she will. As tired as she makes me, I will never tire of hearing her shout "look grandma, look" I will never tire of her reaching for me or having her ask if she can "hold you". I will never tire of her whispering "so much" back to me when I tell her I love her. Lately Clara has been having issues with falling asleep. It's nap time and Ellie is out cold while Clara does somersaults on the bed. So I have been laying down next to her, trying to get her to calm down. The other day I noticed that as I whispered softly in her ear "I love you so much", she calmed down immediately. I started to whisper songs as I held her close. And as I whispered softly to her, her tiny little body relaxed and she fell asleep. Do you want to know what makes a grandma's heart burst with joy? To hold her grand baby, sleeping in her arms. To lay in the quiet dark and watch these angels God has placed in my life. God spoke to my heart as I lay there whispering softly to her. My Heavenly Father feels the same way about me. He longs for me to call out to Him, to ask Him to hold me and to listen to His whispers when my life is full of somersaults. When I toss and turn and can't sleep. When my mind is a whirlwind. That feeling I have that brings tears to my eyes as I hold my dear babies can't even compare to the love my Jesus has for me and that's almost too awesome to imagine. I don't know why grandma's whispers calmed her to sleep as we snuggled under the covers. Maybe it was just the reassurance that I was there, so close and I wasn't going to leave her. Just like my heavenly Father is right here with me and wants me to know He will never leave me. And I can always ask Him to hold me until I fall asleep, knowing He will.
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