He Loves Us Still
· As most of you know by now, my husband had retinal detachment surgery done back in August. He just recently stopped wearing his eye patch, but his vision has not returned. Praise the Lord, he does have some vision, but it is very distorted. When his retina first detached, all he could see was blackness. Now as he looks at words, he can see the first and last letter but nothing in between. And here's a fun fact, when he looks at me, apparently I look like a funny Snap Chat or fun house mirror reflection. Before our souls are united with Christ, everything seems black. The Bible can seem so hard to understand. Prayer seems like we are talking to a wall. But then, our Saviour heals our hearts when He enters in and the blindness disappears. That doesn't mean that we automatically understand everything the Bible says or that prayer automatically becomes easy. It takes time. It can seem distorted and hard to understand. So, we go back to the Great Physician and ask for help. Mike's surgeon told him last Friday that it was time for the patch to come off. To work his eye muscles so that they can focus and hopefully in time, see a little clearer. That's what we need to do as christians. Take off the patch of "I don't understand", "I don't feel like God hears me", "this seems too hard", etc. and ask your Heavenly Father for help. Ask him to help your focus so that you can better understand his book of comfort, the Bible. It's simply God's love letter to us. Ask for help as you pray. Prayer is simply talking to God as a child talks to a father. We don't know how long it will take before Mike will be able to see clearly out of that eye. It might not ever happen, but that doesn't mean he's going to give up trying. Understanding the Bible may take a long time. Don't give up. I haven't. I learn something new every single day and God opens my eyes and helps me to focus. So...back to that fun house mirror effect. Am I happy that's how my husband sees me? With a huge body and tiny head? Nope~ gotta be honest~not. one. bit. But he loves me regardless, because he is seeing through eyes of love. We can see ourselves as failures, as worthless, as a complete fun house mess at times, but that's not what God sees because God is looking through the eyes of His Son who died for us. What He sees is love. When Mike tells me that I'm beautiful and that he loves me, I tease him now and respond, "you think that because you are blind in one eye and need glasses for the other". God is not blind though. He sees us just as we are and yet, He thinks we are beautiful and He loves us still.
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