4/19/2024
How To Know God’s WillI sat on my bed in the darkness and had a talk with God. My tears seemed to mimic the weather, as the rain beat against my windows. I had been wrestling with a certain prayer request for a very long time and until today, I felt overwhelming confusion. It was always on my mind. I was constantly searching God’s word and begging for an answer. I was scared. I didn’t want to make the wrong decision. I wanted God’s will.
How do we know what God’s will is? There are times when it’s an easy answer. Black and white. You get in His word. If the request in question goes against what God’s word clearly teaches, that’s your answer. But there are some things that are just plain hard and unclear. And that’s where I found myself. And in the process, I found myself slowly giving up. In the battle, I got tired. I didn’t want to fight. I wanted to stop trying to figure it out. I became melancholy and slowly, satan tried to convince me that the easy route was the only route. But THE Holy Spirit dwells within me! Christ’s power rests on me and even though I may have felt done physically, God was not done. His Spirit continued to whisper to my heart that I needed to seek wisdom. I did not have my answer yet. And so I did. Whenever the question came to mind, I begged God for wisdom. That was all I could do. Today my husband expressed his concerns. He noticed the melancholy state I was in, even though I thought I was hiding it well. I argued with his assumption but when he left for the day, I got into God’s word again and God’s word got into me. And after months of confusion, in His time He answered. And I knew. I had a peace. And that’s when the tears fell. Too often I find myself trying to figure life out in the flesh. My flesh is so weak. I worry and wonder more than I pray. I had to completely let go of me. I had to keep seeking God until He answered. Oswald Chambers said it so eloquently~ “The weakest saint can experience the power of the Deity of the Son of God if once he is willing to let go. The power IS the Holy Ghost, not something He imparts. No power on earth or in hell can conquer the Spirit of God in a human spirit. It is unconquerable. Don’t cave in because you have been baffled. Get at it again. Stand committed to God.” God knew that I needed to read that today. He knew I needed to read the exact verses He gave me this morning. Through this process, when seeking God’s will I have found: 1. In the weakness of my flesh, I can be tempted to give up, but God never does. He never gives up on us. 2. If you want to know God’s will, you must know God. It is of utmost importance that we hide His word in our hearts daily. Stay in His word. 3. Because of the battle, my prayers have been constant, my faith has increased and my strength has been renewed. All in God’s beautiful timing. Don’t stop praying, don’t stop seeking, don’t stop asking! 4. God’s love has completely and utterly overwhelmed me. Again. 5. I will continually glorify Him. And so in the quiet of my bedroom as the rain and tears fell, He sat there on the bed with me. He listened. And He answered. As cliche as this might sound, the rain stopped and the sun came out. I don’t think that’s a coincidence, and I don’t take it for granted. He is such a great God. I don’t know why God has us wait for His answer, but I do know that He knows~ and that’s all that matters. Not only did I have peace, He strengthened my faith and refreshed my soul. He gave me His answer and I was ready for the fight. SCRIPTURE READING: 1 Thessalonians 5:17, Acts 17:11, John 5:39, Romans 8:9, 1 Corinthians 6:19, 2 Corinthians 12:9, John 14:16, 26&27, James 1:5, Matthew 26:41, Philippians 1:6, 1 John 5:14-15, 20, Psalm 119:10-11, Ephesians 3:16-21, Romans 1:17, 1 Chronicles 16:11, Psalm 31:24, Colossians 1:11, John 11:22, Matthew 7:7-8, Psalm 70:4, Psalm 86:12, Hebrews 13:15, 1 Timothy 6:12 |
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