Insecurities

I have insecurities. I think if we are honest most of us do, but like to pretend that we don't. When I first married Mike we moved 900 miles away from our families to CT. I was so insecure about being a new wife, mom and youth pastor's wife. I would sit on the front pew every church service just clinging to Mike. The pastor finally had a talk with us and told us we really needed to mingle and get to know the people. That was so hard for me! When we moved to Toledo the church there was without a piano player. When they found out I could play they asked if I would play for services. Talk about nervous! I was used to playing classical music which you could practice for months and now I was asked to play 5 songs and a choir special every week. My hands shook every Sunday. That was almost 25 years ago ladies and you know what? My hands shook on Easter Sunday when I played for Mike's solo. There will always be areas of insecurity that I struggle with but as I sat at the piano Sunday morning, I asked the Lord to sit right there next to me and place my hands in His. I also asked my family for help by praying for me that morning. Whatever insecurities you might have, you can be assured that your Heavenly Father wants to help you with them. He wants to hold your hands in His and still your heart. You might have an insecurity about coming out to church, not knowing what to do or where to turn in your Bible or maybe that you won't know anyone there and feel like an outsider. Ladies, please don't ever let that stop you. The Lord will still your heart. He will be with you every step of the way and there is nothing wrong with asking for help, just like I did. Maybe your insecurity is in a completely different area than church. Whatever it might be I think as ladies we need to be there for each other, support each other, always be willing to help. You might never understand someone else's insecurity and they may never understand yours but wouldn't it be such a sweetness to our souls to know that other ladies love us, want to help us and are praying for us instead of worrying about how they will view the things we are insecure about? Let's be those ladies. (And remember, I'll always be sitting at the piano in church, you can come and talk to me if you need help with anything 😊)