Let’s think outside the box today. What is your enemy/enemies?
Notice I did not ask “who” your enemy was.
Quite often we find ourselves in circumstances beyond our control. Those circumstances cause our hearts to be heavy and our thoughts to spiral, so we look for things to blame for those circumstances. A person that hurt us. A health problem. A financial scare. Watching those we love suffer.
Such has been my case for the last few months. My adult children have been suffering, and I’ll be honest~it’s been way too hard. Anxiety and sleeplessness have prevailed. Countless tears have been shed. It’s been discouraging and frightening. It’s been physically and emotionally draining.
It’s been me trying to blame the circumstances and problems for all the emotions I just listed.
The reality is, the problem has been in my head. The multitude of thoughts within me have been on the problems instead of God’s promises.
I realized that this morning. My reading was Psalm 1-8. Very familiar passages. Because I have read these chapters so many times, I actually had the fleeting thought that they would not bring me the comfort I was desperately needing today. But just like God always does, my eyes were opened once again.
Let me break it down for you.
Psalm 1:2~’His delight is in God’s word and he meditates on it day and night.’
I immediately realized I have been meditating on the darkness my kids have been walking through, and trying to somehow find a way to fix problems or bring them comfort, instead of meditating on God’s words and leaning on them.
Psalm 3:1&2~’There are so many that trouble me, rise up against me and convince me that God will not help.’
So often when we read the Psalms, particularly verses like these, we think of physical people. Here is where I want you to think outside the box. What if you added~ Many “thoughts” trouble me. Many “thoughts” rise up against me. Many “thoughts” convince me that God cannot help. Because~ isn’t that the truth?
God tells us over and over again that He loves us. He will help us. His plan is for our good. He will never leave us. But we let the enemy, our thoughts, convince us otherwise.
*Our enemy called discouragement.
*Our enemy called fear.
*Our enemy called sadness.
*Our enemy called unbelief.
*Our enemy called hard.
*Our enemy called anger or loneliness.
*Our enemy called tired, depleted and empty.
*Our enemy that tells us we can’t do this. We can’t go on. That it’s hopeless.
I’m so thankful for that little word, because it brings hope. ‘But God. God is our shield, our glory and the lifter up of our head.’
This verse really struck me. My daughter just had a baby girl 2 weeks ago. As my husband was holding her, she kept trying to hold her head up to look at him. We were amazed at the strength she had for only being 2 weeks old, but eventually her tiny self could not keep up. She let out the sweetest little cry and then she just laid down against my husband and in all that coziness, she fell fast asleep. You know where I’m going with this. When my feelings tell me that things will never look up, God literally just told me ‘He is the lifter up of my head’, not me. He is my strength when my tiny self has no strength. And then…
Psalm 3:4&5~’I cried to God and He sustained me and I slept in peace.’
It isn’t until I realize all the things above that sleep and peace will come. It isn’t until I cry out to God and realize that it is He who holds me and sustains me and that I cannot do it myself, that I can lay down against Him and in all that coziness, rest in His peace.
Psalm 3:6&8~ And that’s when I realize that ‘I don’t have to be afraid of ten thousand thoughts’ that enter this mama’s mind and fight against me. Because God is my strength and salvation. He is my children’s strength and salvation. His blessings are upon us.
There is so much more here~
Psalm 4:1~God gives us relief when we are in distress.
Psalm 4:3~The Lord has set us apart and will hear when we call.
Psalm 4:4&5~I can be still when I put my trust in God, even when the thoughts creep in and say, ‘Will things ever be good again? Who will help me?’
Psalm 4:6~I know God will. His light will break through all the darkness and shine on me and my children.
Psalm 4:7&8, 5:11&12~And God will put gladness and joy in my heart again. Sleeplessness will be replaced with joy.
Psalm 5:3~And in the morning, I will look up at God, but things will be different because I won’t be trying to do it in my own strength anymore.
He will be holding me.