TO FALL IN LOVE ALL OVER AGAIN
I watched the young bride to be.
Two days before the “I do’s”.
The winds of work all around her. Like walking on water, her eyes fixed only on him.
Pure joy in the eyes that beheld her groom.
Unabashed love filled the heart that was his.
No care for the lack of helpers. Oblivious to the hard work her hands were doing, the many jobs before the big day, the late nights and lack of sleep.
11pm. Endless wedding chores had filled her day, and yet, she couldn’t wait to get home and talk to the love of her life. Sleep could wait.
And so I thought on my own marriage.
Those early years when he was the most important thing in the world to me and my love for him was much greater than my love for myself.
Time changes things.
Self pity gets the upper hand far too often.
Today I will remember.
Today I will choose to say “I do” again.
And then I thought about HIM, my Savior, and how often self has pushed Him aside. I remember when I first fell in love with Him so many years ago. That love has feigned. I was willing to do anything, go anywhere, serve wherever needed.
All with joy in my heart.
I would take on any responsibility in ministry,
all for the love of HIM,
and as the sun went down and stars illuminated the evening sky,
I was never too tired to talk to HIM.
There were no complaints about not getting help with the endless work ministry calls for,
because my great love for HIM was my motivation.
Like a young bride, my every breath held His name. My heart was totally His.
Somehow, too often along the journey, my joy gets lost in serving because I take my eyes off of HIM and turn them instead toward myself.
Today I will choose to say “I do” again. I will rekindle the love I lost. I will remember the day He filled my heart and left no room for self to squeeze in. I will love Him with my everything. I will serve Him entirely. I will rejoice in the joy only He can bring.
I will walk on water towards Him. My eyes only on Him. No self pity. No self love.
No complaints about all the others behind me in the boat that aren’t walking with me,
because all I need is HIM.
Yes, today I will say “I do” again.
“I know thy works, and thy labour, and thy patience....and for my name's sake hast laboured, and hast not fainted. Nevertheless I have somewhat against thee, because thou hast left thy first love....Remember...”. Revelation 2:2-5
“Now the end of the commandment is charity (love) out of a pure heart, and of a good conscience, and of faith unfeigned:” 1 Timothy 1:5
“Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God.” I Corinthians 10:31
“That I see Him walking on the waves, no shore in sight, no success, no goal, just the absolute certainty that it is all right because I see Him walking on the sea. It is the process, not the end, which is glorifying to God. God’s end is to enable me to see that He can walk on the chaos of my life just now. If we have a further end in view, we do not pay sufficient attention to the immediate present: if we realize that obedience is the end, then each moment as it comes is PRECIOUS.” Oswald Chambers