Wait! What Happened?

WAIT! WHAT HAPPENED?
There are little moments in the lives of your children when you stop and think~”Wait! What happened?” One minute they want you to hold them and rock them. They want to snuggle with you and listen to you sing lullabies. Because their precious, little hearts love you so much~ they are no respecter of privacy or alone time. They beg to be with you, whether you’re cooking dinner, doing laundry or trying to hide out in the bathroom. They look at you with complete and utter adoration in their eyes. You are the most important and most beautiful woman in the world to them. You are their everything.
And then~you’re not.
Suddenly, one day they are telling you that you are mean because you won’t let them have their way. The adoration is gone.
And it hurts. Deeply.
A few years pass and you might even hear the heart wrenching words “I hate you” (or the look on their face says it). They won’t talk to you, and they either want to be alone in their room, or out with their friends.
And it hurts. Deeply.
And then they get married and start talking about having their own kids and suddenly the mom who could do no wrong, was wrong. You are told they will do things differently with their own children, (just like we probably told our parents). Their memories of how things happened while they were growing up might even be completely different than your own. It makes you feel like somehow you failed. You let them down.
And it hurts. Deeply.
You desperately want them to know how much you love them~ more than life itself. You want them to know that you would do anything in the world for them and that you didn’t have all the answers, but you did your best. And you prayed and prayed and prayed and then prayed some more. You desperately want them to know that, no matter how old they get, they mean everything to you. When they hurt, you hurt. When they cry, you cry. When they laugh, you laugh. You lay awake nights trying not to worry. You think about them all day long. But you don’t think they realize this. They don’t realize.
And it hurts. Deeply.
Dear mama, one day this too will pass and suddenly you will think~”Wait... what happened?” because they are telling you that they are thankful for how you raised them. And the look in their eyes shows the adoration they had for you so long ago.
Until that day, continue to pray mama. Don’t ever stop and don’t ever give up. Give your children to God, trust Him and have faith. It might take a while to get past the stage you are in at this moment, but God knows the end of the story and if you’ve given your babies to Him, it will always be a happy ending. You aren’t mean. You are doing what’s best for your child. They don’t hate you. There are stages where you can’t be their friend, as much as you want to be, you have to be their mother. God has given you the task and ministry of raising them for His glory and some days it will be harder than you can imagine. And then one day, you wake up and you are a grandma and that precious, little grand baby is looking up at you with complete and utter adoration.
As the years pass, so do the little moments, and you find yourself saying, “Wait! 😊, What happened?” because your own children aren’t just your children anymore, they truly have become your best friends. And on that day, as you find yourself listening to your best friend talk about their own kids, holding back the tears, you pray and thank God because you have complete and utter adoration in your eyes for this miracle He has blessed you with.
James 4:14, Proverbs 22:6, Psalm 127:4-5.